Sigh

Friends come and go,
Lovers come and go,
Things come and go,
Everything is like a passerby,
They come and they go,
Nothing stays forever.

Sigh,
I was so naive,
To always think that you'll always be here for me.
I wonder,
how many times have I been writing bout all these stuff?
Countless.
Maybe from the beginning,
It was never you guys who left me,
Maybe it was always me.
Maybe I was the one who brought all these to myself.

Countless tears had fall from my eyes,
Countless times I had wasted to think about what happened between us,
Countless times I've tried to see what's my mistake
Countless times...I've tried to communicate with you.
Countless times frown has formed on my head...
And countless times, I have failed to patch our friendships together.

I always wonder,
Was it right to just let go?
Was it right to just stop thinking?
Was it right to just blame everything on myself?
Was it right to just let it ended up this way?

Maybe it was you who tried to make me think is my fault.
Maybe it was you who betrayed me,
Maybe you've tried to cover up things that I should not know.
Maybe you never really did treat me like a friend.
Maybe...It was all just an ACT!!

Why can't anything be clear to me?
Why am I the one who is always left behind?
Why am I typing all these when I know you'll never read it!
Why am I doing all these?
Why can't I just fall into deep slumber and forget everything?

Answer is simple.
Because I can't...
I can't leave things at it is and forget everything...
Because,
It is you...
Maybe because,
I still treat you like my own best friend.
Maybe,
I never hated you for dumping all these shits on me.
Maybe I was too nice to even thought of hating you.

I'm a fool.

Please... :')

If you're reading this,
I hope you'll read it to the end,
I love you since the we've became good friends,
I might be invisible to you everytime you mentioned ur crush,
I never stop encouraging you to court her,
Because, I love to see the face you have everytime you talked bout her,
I don't really care bout the fact that I'll never be "The-One" for you,
I just want you to know that,
I'll be here for you,
Not only as a good friend, But also as a girl who loves you alot.

I'm not pretty on the outside, that's my biggest flaw.
But, on the inside, I'm prettier than most of the girls.
I never complained anything bout you because you are who you are,
I don't want you to ever change.
I want to love you for who you are,
I never had the courage to tell you bout my feelings,
because I'm afraid,
If I am to be rejected by you,
I'm afraid that we'll never be as close as this anymore.

I've realize from the start,
That we'll never be BEST friends,
because, I'll never be contented with only being best friends with you,
I want to be beside you,
Not as a good friend, but as a lover.
I want to stand up straight and be proud to tell everyone that we're lovers.
I don't want to squat in the corner,
Grieving because I cant have you,
Letting everyone's suspicious glance fall on me.

Even if I can't have you for the next few years,
Will you be mine just for one night?
Can you fulfill my dreams to stand straight and proud beside you?
Only one night.
I want you to hold me in your arms and waltz with me.
Just one night,
Let me be selfish.

Will you be my prom date on 30th October?

-Love is like a rose, the flower itself represents beauty, yet the thorns represents pain and hurt-